Ok ,ok ,guys ,I'm stepping down on this again. No,I'm not back.
I'm afraid I will never be really back again.
It's just that I want to stop in to have a say at the things said.
if this mephistopheles kid wants to leave. then fine. i think its a shame - because we could do with more overseas members, but its up to him.
and this mephistopheles person.
I know you could. I would love to do so. But it seems to me that I'm not welcome at all. And that is not because,or at least not lony because of, what happened between us,pat. I'ds love to try ,and I know I could do so too.
One problem is the way you look at me, if you call me "this person" or "kid". This are obnoxious outings of disrespect.
Could you explain me why , and say if you still feel I could be valuable if I'd return ,which I want to.
now he has decided to leave the forum. no doubt he feels i have driven him away and made him feel unwelcome. i say he's being a sooky martyr, but whatever....
No ,I'm not being a sooky martyr, I was never trying to be.
I felt like you said I swasn't welcome after what happened. But I misinterprated your words. I know, and I'm most gravely sorry for what happened.
Again ,I know what I did wrong ,but is that a reason to insult ,coz these kind of things do touch me in a way.
I'm wanting to forget this things and try to be a valuable member ,which I'm not sure off I could ever be , but I'm not sure if you guys still want me after this.
I just hope differences aren't too big. I'd love to bridge this gap in a way.
to be honest i just felt he was enjoying testing out his debating skills because at times he was off an tangents about how i was wrong about something i didn't even say. on top of this he told me i was "offensive" in suggesting he had missed the point.
he then accused me of saying that i said northen zoos should not have tropical animals. i never said that. but since he was iching for yet another excuse to test his debating skills against his own speculation of hypothetical comments i could make, i decided to test him out. i said:
I know I turned your words around in a way. I'm sorry ,I shouldn't have done that.
I know I missed a part of the point ,but it would be too much too say I didn't see the bigger point. I do and did understand part of your point. I know I argued things that had no relevance. I know I have been stupid.
I know what i did wrong ,but I was not testing what I could do.
I might just have took things personal too soon.
But now ,I'm not sure if I can still just leave that.
nonetheless. i am happy to continue to be here and talk conservation and ideas should other people be happy to talk back. i don't get offended by other people having different opinions as me and i expect that others shouldn't get ****** at me for the same reason.
I know ,I shouldn't either. I hjave been too sensitive.
I'm sorry.
patrick , I know what happened ,I know what mainly I did wrong. You didn't do much of a wrong . I misinterpretated. I haven't been the kind of member you need. I must thank you for making me see that, but ,I must say , I have used you a bit like you said I should leave, coz I couldn't deal with it. I have severe difficulties at dealing with such situations.
I hope you are still wanting to give me another chance. I'd so love to be accpeted here again,which I know off is impossible.
And no, I'm not just trying to talk me back in or too make you forgive me for what happened. No.
i think its a shame - because we could do with more overseas members, but its up to him.
I know it's up too me ,and maybe I took the wrong decision.
I hope I could do anything here ,but I'm not sure. I'm willing to try though ,however I'm not sure if it's still possible.
i certainly didn't tell him to go though.
I know, that was a severe misinterpretation of me. I know. I made severe mistakes , that I hope not to make again , if it didn't ruin it forever.
Mephi could have been the same if he chose to stay . Its too bad he has decided to leave , but as Patrick said , nobody asked him to leave .
I just want to say that I appreciate all of you on the forum , and as I have got to know you all better , I respect you all alot better too .
Let that be clear ,I respect all of you guys, even you Patrick ,even after that message, I still do.
I know what I could be nigel ,and if it was possible,I'd try. If.
Maybe it is. I want to come back and try again ,but , I'm not sure.
I know now leaving might not have been a right decision.
I know what I did wrong ,and I'm most severely sorry for the things that happened.
From this site ,no harsh feelings ,but ,patrick ,and please don't bring me down for this ,I understood what i did ,I now know ,and I hope you understand , what I did and what I shouldn't have done. Your words were harsh ,but helpful. And still ,I'm not sure were to place em.
Till some time around here ,guys ... maybe.