For a zookeeper I make a decent wage.....granted it’s still not a high wage....but probably one of the best. I just can’t handle the consistently being treated horribly by an employer. When staff is constantly treated badly and devalued...it’s completely demoralizing. Its sad.
I'm glad you've mentioned this, and sorry for the long reply , but I think its worth discussing and I have a lot of thoughts on this issue (Haven't observed this in Brazil but I know and have observed that this is a dominant trend in working cultures in Industrialised Northern hemisphere countries of the West).
It isn't often talked about , much to the detriment of conservation , but this issue of toxic organizational cultures , cut throat competition, and "kiss up kick down" culture is currently a big and deeply entrenched problem within all fields of conservation. It doesn't matter whether it is academia / research , NGO work , zoos and even volunteering as all of these fields have endemic levels of this problem and very sadly it is actually one of the biggest internal threats facing conservation which doesn't just undermine credibility but also funding and the future.
Ultimately (and ironically) it is a situation very similar to cultures that exist within corporations , governance and banking that promote and normalise a working culture of cut throat machiavellian behaviour / zero sum competition and an absense of any real leadership in favour of tyrannical, petty, and very badly trained organizational middle managers. This kind of organizational culture is NEVER sustainable and it ALWAYS ends up imploding in the end with disastrous consequences for the institution itself , it is the equivalent of sitting on a barrel of gunpowder while smoking , a totally cretinous behaviour.
It begs the question , how can organizations and institutions which pride themselves as being key in promoting and actively working towards a sustainable relationship between human civilization and the natural world even work in such when their own organizational cultures are deeply unsustainable ? Moreover, how can the same institutions talk about mitigating human wildlife conflict when they are totally inept at mitigating conflictive cultures in their own midst?
The answer of course is they quite simply can't , because its not about talking the talk and not walking the walk. So much of what is stated becomes merely hollow platitudes and most of the pretence (at least within the academic circles) of being morally "superior" and "righteous" is therefore almost comically hypocritical. This sort of top down cognitive dissonance between core organizational values as stated to the outside world and the inside reality of what is actually practiced just undermines and infects the whole operation and (as you've pointed out) destroys morale of workers whose work keeps the thing running / together.
No institution is too big or venerable / historic to be immune or safe from this as it eats up workplaces like a cancerous tumour , growing and growing until it eventually stops everything else from working. If you doubt what I'm saying then just take a look at the changes that have occurred with regards to work charters at the Zoological Society of London , one of the oldest zoos / natural history societies in the world (which as I have heard through the grapevine was brought in out of necessity).
In academia and research organizations it leads to **** poor science and the death of critical thinking which is replaced with stultifying and suffocating group think and mobbing of those who refuse to conform to these norms. In conservation practice like zoos and NGO's it invariably bleeds institutions of way too much money , their reptutation and good name get deservedly tarnished, and the best workers end up leaving (as you seem to be on the verge of doing) resulting in a lack of dynamism and a mediocre and depleted work force.
I know it might seem right now like nothing would ever change the current organizational culture you have to endure at work, however, sooner or later the organization that you currently work for will have to face the consequences of the magnitude of the problem they are creating and it won't be pretty for them. Basically they are in essence lighting their own funeral pyre / putting a noose around their own neck.
My advice ? Get out of your current workplace , find a different work place/ zoo (with a healthier organizational culture) and don't forget to watch from a distance as the management you've suffered under self-immolate themselves.